Sunday, July 21, 2013

bila rasa itu muncul

rasa itu kembali lagi setelah lama menghilang.
aku tak suka rasa yang satu ini, sebab ia buat aku terluka dan kecewa.
walaupun aku sendiri tak tahu sebabnya aku jadi begitu.

kadang-kadang aku rasa tidak adil kerana aku saja yang jadi mangsanya, sedangkan dia
tapi bila difikirkan kembali, wujudkah perasaan itu walau sekelumit di dalam hati dia?
sungguh aku tak tahu, dan hampir kadang malas untuk ambil tahu.
tapi semakin lama aku tipu diri sendiri, semakin banyak ia menghantui aku.

aku hanya insan biasa, punya hati yang paling dalam.
hati yang paling dalam itulah hati yang paling 'fragile' bak kata kawan-kawan,
ya, aku tak nafikan. memang aku ini sensitif dan cengeng, cepat saja air mata dan aku berkawan rapat.

Ya Allah Kau hilangkanlah rasa dalam hati aku ini.
aku dah tak sanggup nak berharap pada sesuatu yang tak pasti dan sesuatu yang mungkin bukan tertulis untuk aku lansung.
selama ini hanya harapan palsu yang aku selalu titipkan pada hati aku yang terpaling dalam itu.
dan cukuplah,

aku sudah tak mahu jadi penipu lagi.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

i love being random :D

Dunia takkan berakhir
Walau kini engkau tak disisi
Ku yakini aku mampu
Walau harus hidup tanpamu
(sakura, setelah hujan)

it's already 7th of Ramadhan, which means it has been a week of fasting month. and i really really feel that time do fly very fast nowadays.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for giving me chances to 'taste' this holy month once again. i hope i'll be able to change for the better day by day, Ramadhan was actually the 'special' month that i have been waited throughout the year. i feel closer to Him the Almighty during Ramadhan and most impoertantly, i feel safe (not sure for what reason, but i did) and all the naughty negative thinking will dissapear during Ramadhan!

well, that's all for now. cheerio!
but before that enjoy some interesting quotes:

" we might be trapped with our gruesome experience of negative upbringing but we forgot that we still have the choice. it's in our hand. we decide" mac taylor, csi:ny season 9 ep 2

" live hell or live well, we decide" - hlovate

Friday, July 5, 2013

upside down

arg tensennya!

air takde kat kuarters.
makanan dalam peti dah habis (leftover foods je ada :( )
kredit dah tamat tempoh, which means bbm takboleh guna
dahlah tinggal sengsorang tanpa housemate

all in ONE DAY!

i need my comfort food now, tapi nak masak camna air takde kat sini :(
alahaiii

and first time tengok dan alami sendiri macam mana keadaan langkawi yang sedang banjir
kalau dulu, pernah jugak terfikir macam mana pulau sekecil langkawi ni akan jadi kalau banjir, sekarang siap boleh tengok depan mata 'kolam sawah padi'


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

spring song


I wish I had someone; who suddenly arrive
And show me how the flowers grow and come out in winter field
I wish I had someone new; tender to my heart
Someone who will share me precious time

If I had pretty spring; at the corner of my heart
I will say goodbye to winter land, you so cruel the winter wind
and I will check the through the phone, the number is 131
Don’t you know the truth is in fine weather