Wednesday, October 27, 2010

hikmah

Dear ALLAH,

there must be something U want to give to us behind all these trials.
i hold on to this and i'm still waiting for that "something".

Alhamdulillah for every single thing You've grant us and we are very grateful.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Friday, October 22, 2010

random lagi

salam and hi to all,

dah lama rasanya tak conteng2 dalam blog ni. bukan apa, agak sibuk sikit lately ni. balik2 cuti aritu dikejutkan dengan berita sedih, pastu gerak ke konvo kakak dan balik2 ni, penat je rasa dan skarang ni pun tgh dalam mood sedih juga. takpalah, ALLAH tengah nak uji keluarga kitorang kot. nak tengok sejauh mana pergantungan padaNYA masa ni. aku harap ada hikmah disebalik apa yang berlaku ni.

lately ni, aku rasa aku banyak sangat reflects pasal benda2 di sekeliling aku, pasal diri aku sendiri etc. dan bila dah masuk mode tu, terus aku jadi mixed feelings- aku rasa down, rasa loser, rasa semangat, rasa gembira, semua adalah!

mungkin bila kita berfikir terlalu banyak sangat sampaikan semua benda2 negative dan positive akan bercampur. dan akan sebabkan kita cuba nak jadi defensive bila benda2 negative tu lebih banyak dari positive, sampailah buat kita rasa mixed feelings ni!
*syaitan semua tu*

entahlah, aku tak tahu apa yang ALLAH nak tunjukkan pada aku. menunggu dan terus menunggu je lah jawabnya~~
(bukan pasrah, tapi tawakal)

p/s: nak try balik la menulis apa2 yang patut
p/s 2: nak refresh semangat dan teruskan menghabiskan stok2 novel di rumah :P

Monday, October 11, 2010

such an emotional day i've had!

today was quite emotional and sad for me, for some reason that i won't and can't state here.
it's quite privacy

and for those reasons, it had successfully made me think very deeply about things around me (read:VERY DEEPLY).

i don't know why suddenly everything seems to be very fragile and sensitive to be handled.



yes, ALLAH is testing me right now. alhamdulillah



sekarang rasa serabut, letih, penat, exhausted, tension, malas dan
rasa mcm nak jerit!






AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

kuatkan semangat aku YA ALLAH!!!

........

there, that's it!

the 3 months practicum has ended, so what's next?
portfolio, debriefing, holidayssssssssss and the most awaited one, result!

lots of thing needs to be done before i can officially tido-rehat-makan-jalan2 etc.

hadoih, betapa cepatnya msa berlalu


oh oh

yesterday, amidst all the sadness and grieve for not having to meet the stdnts anymore,
i guess what i just know really tearing up my heart (ayt jiwang tk leh blah)

and now,

i leave it to You, ALLAH.
my all time saviour