Wednesday, December 30, 2009

tidak bertajuk :P

salam and hi to all,

hari ni macam rajin sikit nak update blog...heh~bukan senang nak dapat "mood" mcm ni dan bila dah dapat ni, ape lagi...huhu:P

tapi masalahnya, tak tahu nak tulis apa. haishhh...msalah sungguh la. bila dah rajin mcm ni tak ada idea plak nak tulis, bila sibuk2 tu la idea mencurah2 nak tulis atau update blog...

oleh sebab dah tak ada idea, so rasayan nak stop sini dulu kot..heheh :P

ok lah, till then,
salam and bye bye bye

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

little happiness

salam and hi to all,

it's been a while since i posted my last entry..heh~ bukan apa, since kelas dah start, so masa tu mcm dah tak ada sgt(sume ni alasan je...padahal minggu2 awal cmni takde bnyak keje mana pun..hehe), sebab tu blog ni tak ada entry baru...heh :P

dan tiba2 hari ni rasa nak tulis2 here it is..hehe :)

little happiness..kadang2 benda2 kecik yang berlaku dalam hidup kita pun dah berjaya buatkan kita rasa gembira yang amat, apatah lagi kalo benda2 yang besar berlaku mcm kita dapat result elok ke, kawen ke(ooopppsssiieee :P), kawan kite kawen ke(heheh :P), doa kita termakbul ke or anything that makes us simply feels happy. it doesn't need to be BIG enough, just a simple one can still makes us happy at times:P

sebab tu kot orang2 yang tak cukup duit atau cukup2 je duit untuk hidup still boleh hidup gembira. sebab KEGEMBIRAAN tu SUBJEKTIF...dan kadang2 kegembiraan yang dorang alami tu lebih genuine :)

maybe bagi orang yang jarang2 boleh makan ayam kecuali pada masa tertentu saja, bila dah boleh makan ayam pada hari biasa, itupun dah cukup2 gembirakan diorang

maybe bagi orang yang jarang2 boleh pegi jalan2 naik kete, bila dapat naik kete sekali pun, dah cukup gembira buat dorang

maybe bagi orang yang jarang2 dapat result ok, bila dah dapat 3.0 pointer ke atas pun, dah lebih dari cukup untuk buat dorang gembira

maybe bagi orang yang jarang2 ada duit lebih, bila dan ada duit lebih sikit dan dpt beli benda yang dorang nak walaupun benda tu mungkin murah, dah cukup untuk buat dorang tersenyum sepanjang hari

tengok tu, it seems like they are just simple normal little things that we sometimes didn't care enough about it, but still can make them happy and grateful for what they have.

and for that,

i think we(aku terutamanya) ought to be grateful for what we have in our life
and learn to appreciate things we have :)

and till then,

salam and bye bye bye

p/s: tazkirah skit ari ni..heheh :P

Thursday, December 24, 2009


hanya ALLAH yang tahu

(this post is actually meant to be just an inner thoughts that i feel i can't hold it anymore, on my own. so i decide to post it here, that this blog is my digital "diary" konon2nya, but to all visitors, just ignore this if u don't want to read it)

wowowowo....dah lama giler tak update blog ni..bukan apa, the truth is aku MALAS. hish! mcm mana la nak wat diri ni rajin skit bile mai tang bab2 update blog ni. bukan apa, i take it as an exercise for me to practice my language skills~tak kesahlah malay ke english ke, at least aku brush it up. heh~

mcm tajuk entry ni, hanya ALLAH yang tahu. memang betul sangat. apa yang dapat aku katakan masa ni, sekarang ni, hanya ALLAH yang tahu perasaan aku sebenar-benarnya. apa yang aku rasa~~ kecewa ke, sedih ke, marah ke, gembira ke, syukur ke...aku sendiri pun tak dapat nak simpulkan benda ni. complicated la...:(

tapi, aku tahu, setiap yang berlaku tu mesti ada hikmahnya, aku yakin yang Dia ada sebab atas segala yang Dia telah aturkan, kenapa jadi mcm ni, kenapa jadi mcm tu, semuanya dah tercatat kat loh mahfuz dan dan cuma tunggu masa nak jadi je(mcm mak aku selalu ckp), kenapa aku perlu ada rasa ni lagi?
tak yakin dengan ALLAH ke lina? susah sangat ke nak letak keyakinan tu?
doalah...doa banyak2 insyaAllah, nanti Dia permudahkan urusan...

masalahnya sekarang ni, aku bukan tak yakin, tapi aku ambil langkah berjaga2, tak boleh aim high sgt..takut nanti kita kecewa kalau tak dapat apa yang kita inginkan. tapi, at least kene jugak ada target nak dicapai. (opppsss...pada yang membaca, this has got nothing to do with results or exam or academic, it's only my inner thoughts je)

kadang2 ALLAH jawab doa dengan hint2 yang ditunjukkan, apa yang perlu kita buat adalah YAKIN DENGANNYA!!!

yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin yakin

p/s: hati, tolonglah yakin!
ALLAH, tolonglah aku!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

is trouble a friend?

[gosh. i can't believe it that i wrote TWO. 2.DUA entries in a night! hahah. such an achievement for me :P]

salam and hi to all,

yesterday, my sister had introduced me with songs entitled TROUBLE IS A FRIEND from Lenka and it is quite nice to listen to. it's light and easy listening to ear. sweet :)

i wonder whether trouble is really our friend? but i cannot deny the fact that all of us do have problems and it can happen everyday, every time, every minute. yet, can we regard it as friends? huhu...i know this is just a song but i guess the lyrics tell us many TRUE things.

taking the example that i am now in problems [not a problem but just a lil negative thinking which ripped off my rationale justifications je] i bet IT DOES AFFECT ME in many ways. my emotion is being distracted, my focus [cewahh...focus la sangat :P]had been interrupted, and everything. i just can think straight anymore and it really drives me crazy :(

at this point, i don't think i can agree more with lenka that TROUBLE IS A FRIEND.because friends will be nice to us and treat us well, but trouble did not, kan? so, i would rather called it as a foe indeed.frens, console lah saya :P [WARNING:another unsur2 mengada2 disini!!]

oklah, as usual, nak berhenti disinilah.
till then,

see ya and salam and bye bye bye :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

nak lirik lagu ye?
jap jap jap

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh oh, I try!

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!
Ooo, oh ooo, ooo ahh

video?? carik sendiri kat youtube. :)

can (+) & (-) becomes (1) ?

salam and hi to all,

i've been wondering whether can two differences become a similarity? heh~ it's quite technical here. it is like two different person from totally two different world become together or in other words "unite"? yeah. humans are different. and THAT differences are seldom overlooked by most people. and that is why some people find it hard for them to accept other people or new person who is different into their life/ world coz they just can't take the differences as something which is interesting and unique.

there must be reasons why ALLAH made us all different from each other, aite?

i have been thinking quite deeply about this, just a few minutes ago, after watching an interesting yet lovey-dovey-mushy-teary love story. it struck to me that will it be true that people of a same skin hang out together or is this just apply to *birds*??(it is taken from the idiom "birds of a feather flock together" and i've altered it :P)

typical answers that i always hear is that these differences is the one that will make our life merrier and happier. life will be full of colours since we all portrays different faces and paints different colours, but i bet, i have to get a reality grip. not all will become just like what i'm thinking, kan?

life isn't really a bed full of roses, sometimes those roses do have thorns!

some people find it easy to accept others in their life although that person is totally different from them
but some people just can't. they prefer people who came from their own "clan"
[and this is what buggering me and worries me much]

and that is why, i think, there are problems arise, everyday, because of the DIFFERENCES. i bet, He must have concrete reasons why He made us all different and unique in our own way. kan?

ok lah, i think i have pour out some ridiculous and out of mind post here. just ignore this. but you can read it JUST FOR FUN. HEH~~~~~~

till then,

salam and bye bye bye

p/s: (+)tambah (-) sama dengan (0)
so, maknanya tak boleh lah! [JUST IGNORE THIS]
those who understand, understand lah :P

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

of sacrifice and personal reflections

salam and hi to all,

well. why i'm still awake at this kind of hour? it's 4.30 am in the morning. hah. i guess i can't sleep due to the fact that i just finished watching movie 2012 and it really freaked me out. very very very very much. i know i shouldn't really believe that but i guess, after all, it has coming back to me. deep down in my heart, the fear is building up and up and up and now, i think it has reached the highest limit. i am not saying that i truly believe what the movie served me, but i think, it has impacted me a bit; if it's not many. yes. this temporary world will soon come to its end and we, MUSLIMS know that one day we will be all dead and that is when we will enter the permanent period [well, i'm not going to talk about that in my blog coz i'm afraid that i don't have enough knowledge about it but i guess, i WILL find about it!]

i think maybe this is a call for me to start thinking what had i done all this years and whether it is enough to repay all my wrongdoings? i guess there'sa lot more to go and there's still a long way to go. i need to change myself for the better. my mother always [read me : ALWAYS] reminded me to be good and pay all the bad things with goodness (buat baik semata-mata, balas kejahatan dengan kebaikan)
and with that, we will feel calm and content. but, sometimes i have to admit that being a normal human beings, i too have feeling and sometimes the emotions will drive me crazy and let me to react in a wrong way. it's quite complicated when i have to handle this mixed emotions on my own and that is why i need to always reminded myself not to let the feelings overruled me.

this is where the good deeds comes in. i believe that they played BIG ROLES here. when we obey all the obligations [as MUSLIM, we have to do what we NEED to do],
when we are doing good deeds to people,
when we are being nice to people,
when we help others,
when we are patients enough to deal with people with different attitude,
when we love others as much as we love ourselves,
when we are being considerate to others,
when we are not being selfish,
when we know our limit,
when we willing to learn more to repent,
when all the GOOD THINGS outnumbered OUR BAD DEEDS,

i believe, insyaALLAH ALLAH will make it easy for us.
but, it surely requires us to sacrifice.
yes, to get something is to give something. it's a fair trade.
there will involve lots of sacrifaction.
we need to sacrifice money, time, energy, and even ourselves[if we need to].

Have We not opened your breast for you (O Muhammad (Peace be upon him))? And removed from you your burden,Which weighed down your back? And raised high your fame? So verily, with the hardship, there is relief, Verily, with the hardship, there is relief (i.e. there is one hardship with two reliefs, so one hardship cannot overcome two reliefs). So when you have finished (from your occupation), then stand up for Allahs worship (i.e. stand up for prayer). And to your Lord (Alone) turn (all your intentions and hopes and) your invocations.
surah al-insyirah (solace).

al-quran should be our main references but we must not forget that we have ALLAH and HE should be our main and most invocations and hopes and the one that we should turn to.

i am not a truly devoted preacher myself and i might have slipped most of what i had written here, but i guess it's not wrong for me to share what i feel and know. don't look at the person but look at the words he told [jgn lihat seseorang itu pada rupanya tetapi lihatlah apa yang diperkatakannya] ~~rupa dlm konteks ni agak teknikal maksudnya~~

it's already 5.07 am and i guess, i'm gonna stop here.

till then,
salam and bye bye bye

p/s:this is just a friendly reminder for me. i mean no harm :) ^_^

Monday, December 7, 2009

another random thoughts

salam and hi to all,

it's been a while since my hols starts and i really don't want it to end. heh, i still wants to enjoy my precious moments with family, but i guess i need to get a reality grip. huh! i have another 1 and half years to complete my study and hopefully, i'll be able to fight till the end. INSYAALLAH :)

i've been reflecting on sooo many things lately, from the most important one till the one that i considered small thingy. and surprisingly, i am still searching for that "one" little thing which can makes me content, but i guess, it's still nowhere to be found. don't worry, i'll keep searching and waiting till i found it!
[don't ask me what is that "thing" coz i also wants to know what it is]

there's few things in my wishlist that i want to achieve and i hope to get it done next year. i won't tell that lists now coz i'm afraid you will laugh at me. thing that i really really really really need now is prayer. from you. or maybe you.

till then,

salam and bye bye bye

Saturday, December 5, 2009

baru balik dari kampung

salam and hi to all,

semalam bru je sampai dari tganu selepas perjalanan lebih 6 jam...huh. penat. letih.tired. semua ada...bestnye balik kampung cuti2 mcm ni. terubat rindu dekat cousin2 and tok aku....nak blik lagi...nak nak nak :P

terengganu lembap sekarang ni. best duduk rumah tok musim2 hujan mcm ni. bukan apa, sedap tido kalo hujan2 mcm tu..tambah2 rumah kayu, menambah keenakan tido :) hehe~
bile dah hujan2 mcm tu, memang tak bleh nak pegi mana2 la, aktiviti2 yg selalu aku wat mase blik umah tok pun tak leh nak truskan(aktiviti jalan2 tanpa tujuan). ape lagi, aktiviti lain la yg dibuatnya :P MAKAN...hahahah...hujan=lapar, lapar=makan.
badanku jgn ditnaya2 lagi kawan2, mcm ada gas yg pump je rasa..heh~
dah lama tak makan makanan tengganu...sedap sedap sedap.sampai aku dah gtau kat diri aku, makan je nak makan apa...lepas2 ni la klo nak diet pun...hohoho...[kan fiera kan :P]

satu lagi yang aku suka nya, kt umah tok aku, malam2 air akan pasang (tpi ikut musim jugak, sekarang ni malam2 air pasang la), seronok tgk air pasang..kadang2 sampai mencecah kt tangga..huhuh.pastu mula la nak tgk2 air tu tinggi mana, tgk gelagat budak2 bila air pasang mcm sgt2...

aku rasa aku memang rindu giler ngan kampung aku ni. seronok bile balik dan diraikan.seronok seronok seronok. tgk tu smpai 3 kali tulis seronok. memang bestlah!!

tapi dalm seronok2 pun, aku sedih ngan keadaan tok aku. kesian dia. sakit :(
sebab tu bila aku kat sana, aku memang bantu setakat yg aku boleh. aku rasa puas. at least, nanti2 aku tak menyesal dah kalo ape2 jadi. biasalah manusia ni sekejap sihat sekejap ALLAH trik blik nikmat tu.
dan aku nak bagitahu stu je, jnganlah kita berbuat khianat dekat orang lain. lambat laun, ia akan memakan kita juga. KHIANAT tu KEJI!

aku rasa smpai sini dulu kot.
till then,

salam and bye bye bye