Friday, June 22, 2012

melewati waktu itu

Looking back on younger days, the time has passed, And nothing stays the same, Hey Hey Hey! - Walk Away, Dia Frampton 

adalah susah untuk kita lewati kembali waktu-waktu yang telah pergi, semua memori itu hanya akan terlipat kemas dalam ingatan sahaja. maka sebab itu kita akan membuat sesuatu untuk buatkan kenangan itu kekal, salah satunya dengan menangkap gambar. ya, itulah cara yang paling mudah dan well, terkini seperti zaman sekarang.

namun perasaan yang mengiringi kenangan itu tak mungkin dapat di'letak'kan diatas foto. hanya akan tersimpan di sanubari.




 aku tak punya harta melainkan mereka-mereka ini <3

them cousins :)

love of my life :D

my bestest cousin in crime a.k.a kawan kacip bak kata lanie  :)

 le siblings in le polaroid












lastly, nah bunga untuk kamu :P


bila rasa itu datang

Cubalah tuk mengerti aku, Seperti aku yang mengerti semua tentang dirimu- 3 Suara; Semua Isi Hatimu

oleh sebab aku rasa nak tulis kat sini sangat-sangat, jadi lahirlah entri ini :D

belakangan ni aku selalu terasa teringin nak menulis balik, seperti yang aku pernah buat masa dulu-dulu. dan aku rasa aku banyak in denial sekarang ni, kenapa? sebab sikap aku yang selalu suka bertangguh buatkan aku selalu 'menuduh' masa tak pernah cukup untuk aku walhal sebenarnya bukanlah sibuk manapun. aku masih lagi mampu untuk menulis barang satu atau dua bab, but being me, a real procrastinator i am.

aku masih lagi punyai sikap-sikap negatif yang aku rasa banyak merugikan diri aku sendiri. tak perlulah untuk aku senaraikan apakah sikap-sikap itu, cukuplah hanya kawan-kawan rapat dan keluarga terdekat sahaja yang 'telan' fakta itu. aku maklum bahawa bukanlah satu kesalahan jika aku ini tak sempurna, aku tahu semua orang tak sempurna, ALLAH sahaja :)

dan aku dalam proses untuk membuang semua sikap-sikap itu sikit demi sedikit. memang agak payah untuk terus buangnya sebab ia dah sebati dengan aku selama 25 tahun yang lepas tapi with a strong will, nothing is impossible.

banyak cerita langkawi yang aku nak kongsikan tapi mungkin di entri seterusnya pula.

motif gambar? saje saje sebab aku tengah gila dengan drama ni jadi aku letaklah gambar ni :D


Tuesday, June 12, 2012

why things can't be the same they used to be?

school holidays was just over and it was not really holidays for me, i would say. i was quite busy helping and arranging things for my cousin's wedding. the first cousin who got married in the family. so i guess you can imagine the excitement and the happiness surrounded everyone for almost everyday towards the big day.

so problems aside and i went home with an empty heart, leaving all the workloads and problems i encountered in schools. and for the first time since i started my life here in langkawi, i feel peace , in my heart. really. and my mind was all set for holidays. no other things.

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i guess life has taught me many things lately, especially. the whole different lessons from the one i got during my life as a student. well, maybe i'm becoming more and more matured then only i get to see other side of life, which i didn't favor at all. as what they said, life must go on, so yeah just go with the flow.

i've been praying very hard to Him the Almighty to get rid of my bad behaviour and my short-tempered, seriously. i didn't know why on earth nowadays i get emotional very easy, seriously and seriously. and I HATE THIS! i hate it when i'm emotional and involved others as well, especially my family. i want things to go back as normal again, the time when i just keep everything to myself and when i'm emotional, i still keep things to myself. coz its ok for me to get hurt rather than seeing others being hurt by me. its saddening and pathetic i know.

i hate myself now. capital SERIOUSLY!