Tuesday, October 18, 2011

happy and sad moments are part of life, accept it!

i guess the tittle has said it all, happy and sad moments are definitely part of life, and we have to accept it for whatever reason.

well, many things happened lately. some are meant to be shared with others but some are not, maybe it's a bit personal.

so, the fact that i'm lazy and that's the sole reason why i seldom updated this blog. i used to think of closed it down but not for the moment, maybe in the near future :/

Alhamdulillah i'm officially a graduate and had my convo last 5th october. it was a great feeling indeed, its a mixed of feelings i should say- proud, nervous, happy, joy, sad, that walking-down-the-memory-lane kind of feeling but gay would be the best to top it all!

still remember the moment walking towards the pro cancellor and received the scroll from her. oh my, a great feeling indeed! this is it, this is the moment that i've been waiting and longed for so long :D i know its lame but who cares, its my blog anyway :D :D

am a happy girl at that :D

sadly, the happy moment didn't last that long i guess after i received another news. a shocking one, my grandmother was very ill and refused to eat any kind of food, she only accepted water which makes her tiny body to grow tinier and her condition was really really really sad. pictures sent by my cousin shocked us to bits and that's why all of a sudden, my parents made a quick decision they've ever made(i guess so) and off we(father, mother and i) went back to terengganu that tuesday midnight.

Alhamdulillah all praises are due to Allah for He made our journey easy and safe. that 5 hours of journey was the longest in my life due to the fact that everyone in the car kept on thinking and praying everything will be just fine. it seemed like we are the only car on the road that night together with trailers and lorries which made it a bit dangerous to speed, but above all we arrived safely.

looking at tok's real condition and situation made me wept, afraid that we might lose her. but Allah definitely has His own plan and who am i to question? i got to take care of her for two consecutive days and deep down, i felt relieved and satisfied since i'm able to be beside her towards the end of her life. so to speak, tok left us on thursday night in between mahgrib and isya' and may her soul rest in peace.

speaking about her, my grandmother whom we called 'tok' is the kindest and best person in the whole wide world. i've never saw her mad and she's been a very very very very good wife, mother, grandmother, sibling and friends to those who've known to her. you will never wanted to talk something bad about her, coz it will make you feel guilty afterwards. and i'm truly blessed having the chance to have her as my tok and to know her great personality :)

tok, Na doakan supaya ALLAH ampunkan dosa2 tok yang lalu, semoga roh tok ditempatkan di kalangan hamba2 ALLAH yang beriman dan soleh. tidur dan rehatlah sepuas-puasnya tok dan bergembiralah di sana. we'll always remember you :')

Everyone shall taste death. And only on the Day of Resurrection shall you be paid your wages in full. And whoever is removed away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful. The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception (a deceiving thing).
[Ali I'mran; 185]

to Allah we belong and to Him we shall return

i guess that's all for this time being. till then

1 comment:

fatimah sofiah said...

nice entry. a very meaningful post that I've read before. may tok rest in peace, insyaAllah :)